First term goal achieved!

Baby Sofia is now 8 month plus. Alhamdulillah, she’s still getting my milk. Rezeki Tuhan, no one can argue that. Still remembers the early days of breastfeeding… it was tough, really tough. Aku interested untuk breastfeeding since before I even got pregnant.  Despite of the great benefits to both mummy and baby, and also to daddy (financially of coz haha!), I don’t know why the interests is so high. I just love to breastfeed, love it! And bila pregnant, I prepared myself mentally and physically, by reading books, blogs, sharing thoughts with bf mummies, beli pump, segala barang2 yg berkaitan and etc.

From the non-stop research, eceh research le sgt kan :p… I try to be realistic, as I knew to bf is not easy, other than our effort, it is also God’s will. So aku plan my first term goal, to fully bf her for 6 months. Then if I succeed, I wanna continue to 1 year. Then if I succeed again, I will continue to 1 ½ year! Then continue again to 2 years… and if I can do more than that, it’s a bonus. Insya Allah :))

Some people say, 6 months, you get the Diploma. Degree in 1 year, Masters in 1 ½ years, and PhD in 2 years. Logical? Hahaaa….

Cabaran to bf adalah sgt byk! In writing, boleh jadi satu novel dah. Pastu boleh adapt jadi filem. Heheh.

1st started (as I can remember le), when I surveyed brand utk breast pad. I asked few colleagues who bf, what brand they use and how much the cost and so on. Then came one mummy who hate to bf (baca: hate) and said, jangan beli dulu, ko tak tau ko boleh breastfeed ke tak, bukan sume orang sama, ko breast kecik nanti takde susu rugi je beli pad tu bla bla bla…  

Breast kecik. Yes. That’s what people says to me. I admit it. I am a small figure person. Opss extra-small actually. With 42 kg weight at 154 cm height, yes I am a cup A size. Tak malu mengaku. Sungguh. But I have proved it. Size doesn’t matter. Ada mummy yang duk bangga size besar kat aku, tapi dia cuma dapat bf two months. Itu pun struggle. See? No comment.

Actually until the 3rd day after deliver, I have difficulties to bf. Ye lah, 1st timer, dengan nipple crack, baby don’t know how to latch properly, susu pun tak kuar banyak lagi, stress, sakit after deliver, and so on macam2 cause le. Baby asyik menangis kelaparan, tak boleh tido, sejam sekali mengamuk. Thus hubby panggil tukang urut. Sakit nye urut breast, perghhh kuar air mata de… tapi demi baby and semangat tinggi nak bf, aku tahan kan aje. Tukang urut tu kata breast aku takde prob, cuma sbb 1st time, so kena le stimulate baru susu meriah. Lepas berurut, try jugak bf tanpa jemu. Tak boleh direct, aku pump untuk stimulate. Siap kuar darah menitik2 lagi dari cracked nipple. Huhuu

And Alhamdulillah, lepas berurut tu susu memang okay. In fact colostrum pn kuar banyak, after almost 2 months jugak lah baru le kuar susu matang yang kaler putih tu.

Tapi masa tu le jugak pung pang pung pang family members torture macam2 sebab aku and hubby tetap tak mau bagi formula milk.

Pegi beli susu tepung skarang! Kesian kat budak tu menangis je. Kenapa nak biar anak lapo? – ada ke ibu bapa yang sanggup biar anak kelaparan? Tolong lah, kami tau apa kami buat! Just give us time to adapt. Bukan kami penah ada experience pun.

Keturunan kita ni takde susu. Kami dulu pun paling lama boleh bf sebln je. Awak tu dah le body kecik, memang takde susu ni. 


Breast kecik, nipple pun kecik. Budak tu tak boleh nak isap pun. Bagi je susu botol. Senang nak isap. - suka2 ati korang je nak judge aku kecik ke besar ek. Aku percaya, kejadian Tuhan itu adil. Sofia dilahirkan kecik, 2.6 kg je. And mulut dia pun cute kecik je, macam aku kot. Hahah! Tapi Alhamdulillah, sampai sekarang Sofia tak pernah ada problem latching. She’s good in using what’s given to her! Even mummies yang inverted nipple pun boleh bf what? There are tools in the market which can help on nipple problems lar. Huh.

Jaga diri dalam pantang ni. Takyah pikir nak bf. Kena banyak baring. Nanti rahim susah nak kecut. Perut pun buncit. – time tu aku tak pandai lagi nak bf cara baring. So everytime nak bf, terpaksa duduk. Yes, betul dorang concern pasal health aku. Tapi kan bf tu jugak boleh kecutkan rahim?

Bla bla bla… Dan banyak lagi… yang menusuk kalbu and menghiris hati newly parents ni. Syukur hubby sangat supportive, and defend our will no matter what they say.

Family satu bab, belum lagi bab orang2 luar yang sceptical dgn bf ni. Why heh? I juz don’t understand. For example;

Aku tak nak bf. Sebab nanti anak tak cerdik. Yang jadi engineer laki aku, bukan aku. So kalu nak anak cerdik kena bagi formula milk yang ada DHA, etc. – Owh, aku engineer myself. Tapi aku bf bukan hanya sebab tu… there are other benefits okay? Masya Allah, kenapa Islam encourage bf until 2 years?

Aku takde masa lah nak pump kat opis, takde tempat sesuai. Malas nak terkejar2. – keyword, MALAS. Heh. Ko ingat aku tak busy ke? Hurm. When there’s a will, there’s a way.

Susah nak pegi shopping. Takde tempat nak bf kat public. – alasan kah? apakah??? Memula mmg kekok and malu. Aku pun awal2 nak bf dulu mmg cuak tiap kali Sofia melalak kelaparan kat public. Kelam kabut cari secluded area. Tapi tak pernah le kat toilet. Haishh tak selera! But then, after a while, aku mula jadi biasa and selamba. Anggap je macam orang tengok aku tgh dukung anak yg sedang tido kat dada. Sambil bf tu aku borak2 le dengan hubby. So tak le obvious kan?

 Tengah bf tu... sambil jalan2 shopping @ Jusco. Sape kata tak boleh? 

Tapi akhirnya cramp gak ar tangan duk dukung camtu. Adehh :))

Dulu rajin jugak pakai nursing cover. Tapi skang dah malas. Sarung je nursing wear or baju belah depan, cover dada ngan tudung. Bantai le bf kat mana2 aku suka. Ada aku kesah? Hahahah!

@ Kenny Rogers restaurant...

time tengah transform jadi Kris Dayanti pun boleh bf jugak what... ahaks

Anyway, Alhamdulillah syukur sangat2, first term goal aku dah achieved. Dah dapat ‘Diploma’ dah ni. Heheh. Even though ada musim kemarau (1st time period after 5th months deliver, production susu decreased), terpaksa top-up ngan susu adik aku yang tengah bf 2nd baby dia. Weeks after baru aku bleh cover stok ebm balik, until now. And thanks a lot to her, willing to be ibu susuan Sofia. Tapi still, I consider it as fully bf for 6 months, sebab Sofia tetap tak merasa formula milk till then.

Next target nak dapatkan ‘Degree’ plak ni. Andai kata tak mampu fully bf, campur formula milk pun dh cukup baik. At least, Sofia still merasa breast milk even though half-half kan… hopefully masih ada rezeki Sofia :))... But kalau tak dapat jugak, kita try tahun depan plaks. Eh eh kelahiran depan plak. Hiks.

Motivasi utk aku and bf mummies out there, pedulikan apa orang nak kata. Semangat mesti kuat. Usaha mesti ada. Consistently pumping, makan berkhasiat especially yang boleh tambah susu.

Rezeki dariNya...

Takde niat nak bangga diri. Riak memakan diri. Takut nanti Tuhan tarik rezeki ini. Cuma I always wonder, kenapa kita mudah judge ability orang lain sedangkan kita sendiri belum tentu mampu jadi sepertinya? Sepatut nya support us, teach us and together we share the experience.

Breastmilk is a great gift from Allah. Why resist?